The Saga Continues

I feel like our life has become one big soap opera where we are constantly on the edge of our seats wondering what's happening next.

My HCG blood results for Monday 4/2 came in at 9900

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the attending OB/GYN the one that is very optimistic said she thinks the levels are rising nicely and from what was reported friday the U/S that was measuring 4 weeks 6 days there is nothing to worry about. She also told me to make sure I continue the progesterone but there was no reason to continue the estrogen. I should be excited but I didnt really feel that, I told DH and he asked me why wasn't I and I told him the many emotions I have gone through I cannot be happy until they do a scan and see something, movement, growth, baby, a heartbeat. I told him IF we never had that one week where the levels barely moved then I would be comfortable but that Ectopic word still lingers, my fears linger, my hopes barely a glimmer.

What happens Now?: Next U/S 4/7 with bloodwork. I do a followup the following tuesday. According to the IVF due date calculator I should be 7w2d but I do not fit into that anymore as far as I know I know measuring 2 weeks behind based on the dot that was on the screen, lets see if this dot is growing, lets see if I can see a baby.

Sympthoms: Still not urinating as often, boobs still tender but still on PIO, sleepy but not like the first 1 1/2 of doing betas and finding out I am pregnant. I am aware that sympthoms come and go BUT.......I leave it at the BUT.

My thoughts: Lord please continue to guide us on this journey, I am scared and my heart is heavy, help me to be thankful for a miracle. I pray that things are progressing.