My daughter turned a year old last week on 1/30th ...... and is a walker. She started walking at 11 months just as we are getting into the New Year.
There is something incredibly inevitable about my feelings right now. I'm pretty sure that most parents feel them as their babies turn one, or as any major life milestones are about to be crossed off the list. That feeling of life running away from you a little bit; a mixture of happiness and sadness,
excitement for the future and bittersweet feelings about the fleeting nature of childhood.
My baby girl. One.
...One!
One whole year old ( these highlighted words are EXACTLY what I feel and she summed them up so eloquently. Go read the rest of it, I my sentiments are the same.
It’s funny how it is almost impossible to remember life before her. And I don’t mean what I did, or what life was like – that I remember just fine (and with an extra dose of gratitude for how ‘easy’ things were then!) I mean that it defies my brain’s capacity to remember what life was like – and what the meaning of my life was – before having her.
Was my life meaningless without her? Absolutely not. Would I have made less of a difference without becoming a mom? No – not that, either. But for me, the depth of love, sacrifice, and the all-encompassing richness of life that comes from having a child to adore, nurture, and watch grow is something that words can’t do justice to.
She is reaching cords and banging things together, clapping, waving, saying NO, maaaaaaa, dada.
She has been singing Happy Birthday to you since her birthday party on 1/26th.
She still hates diaper changes, getting in the car seat, & being changed. She also is disliking her pack and play to sleep so we are thinking of a wider option but for now she likes to sleep 1/2 the night with us. I know...I know...I know.......
She is such a treat and to know that she is here is nothing short of a miracle. We are grateful and thankful.
Me and hubby had a rocky start for the first few months, and even the D word came up. While we are settling as new parents he still thinks I neglect him so I am working on that.
Tragedy did hit for Black Friday last year.....I didn't get into and I am not sure I will.
But heaven received an angel unexpectedly.
If any of you ladies come across this and you are still going through a cycle, don't give up.
You can see my timeline as well as follow my whole journey and see how long it took but I made it on the other side.
Your journey may not be the same but don't you give up.....
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