Spring Is that you?

Spring is in the air ( well not really) I am a Floridian so really it is spring/summer mostly all year round. I must admit that I LOVE it when we get cold fronts and have 60 degree weather to combat the humidity. As a matter of fact one should be here soon..WOOT WOOT!!

So.... let's see, nothing is truly new. Life has been rather mundane and albeit even somewhat boring so I have a few things I plan for 2019 to spruce things up.

In March I plan to cut my hair and get a mini makeover....I am so nervous but it is time to refresh my look. Not sure what direction I am going but I know it will have to be short since I had post partum hair loss ( or I think I did ). Mama needs a little pampering. Hoping to do it for $200 or less which is ambitious.

I think it is time for me to make a career move, this company I work for is great but the pay sucks plus with the added expense of a child it is just  not feasible, there is no point to work at this point except to not burden my husband with all the bills which I wont.

Next up on the agenda is to start crafting..depending on how it goes I will expand on this blog to make it better and share/sell items. Crafting has been a fun hobby for me but over the years I have lost my mojo so to speak. I did lots for my wedding and recently for my daughters party. It is more of an outlet but I think I will eventually turn it into a business. We shall see.

The current priority has been to de-clutter, this has been a headache. I am realizing that I tie my emotions to things & I am slowing letting them all go.

I just purchased this beauty all the and while Hubby has been reminding me that we need to be very careful with spending. 

If you want to know more about the Silhouette Cameo 3 there are tons of information on Google and Youtube. 

For now I need to unbox and get to know my new toy....stay tuned for projects to follow.

My Girl is 1

Happy New Year 2019

My daughter turned a year old last week on 1/30th ...... and is a walker. She started walking at 11 months just as we are getting into the New Year.

There is something incredibly inevitable about my feelings right now. I'm pretty sure that most parents feel them as their babies turn one, or as any major life milestones are about to be crossed off the list. That feeling of life running away from you a little bit; a mixture of happiness and sadness,

excitement for the future and bittersweet feelings about the fleeting nature of childhood.

My baby girl. One.

...One!

 

 

 

One whole year old ( these highlighted words are EXACTLY what I feel and she summed them up so eloquently. Go read the rest of it, I my sentiments are the same.

 

How is it even possible? My husband and I sat down and looked at old pictures shaking our heads at how time has flown by. I am so very proud of this sweet little head strong little toddler of ours.

It’s funny how it is almost impossible to remember life before her.  And I don’t mean what I did, or what life was like – that I remember just fine (and with an extra dose of gratitude for how ‘easy’ things were then!)  I mean that it defies my brain’s capacity to remember what life was like – and what the meaning of my life was – before having her.

Was my life meaningless without her?  Absolutely not.  Would I have made less of a difference without becoming a mom?  No – not that, either.  But for me, the depth of love, sacrifice, and the all-encompassing richness of life that comes from having a child to adore, nurture, and watch grow is something that words can’t do justice to.

She is reaching cords and banging things together, clapping, waving, saying NO, maaaaaaa, dada.
She has been singing Happy Birthday to you since her birthday party on 1/26th.

She still hates diaper changes, getting in the car seat, & being changed. She also is disliking her pack and play to sleep so we are thinking of a wider option but for now she likes to sleep 1/2 the night with us. I know...I know...I know.......

She is such a treat and to know that she is here is nothing short of a miracle. We are grateful and thankful.
Me and hubby had a rocky start for the first few months, and even the D word came up. While we are settling as new parents he still thinks I neglect him so I am working on that.

Tragedy did hit for Black Friday last year.....I didn't get into and I am not sure I will.
But heaven received an angel unexpectedly.

If any of you ladies come across this and you are still going through a cycle, don't give up.
You can see my timeline as well as follow my whole journey and see how long it took but I made it on the other side.

Your journey may not be the same but don't you give up.....