4 Yr Old's Are Interesting

Infertility is hard. If you found my page because of my journey, then I completely understand what you are dealing with and hope you have success.

4 Yr. Old's Are Interesting.

Let see where did I leave off? Ahhh yes telling COVID to go to hell. What did happen is that it found its way into my home, trekked in by my 4-year-old from Daycare January 2022. Arrggggghhh. Anyway, that is now behind us. 

Thankfully she had very mild symptoms and so did I. Fever spike, a cough and then it was gone as soon as it came. We are incredibly lucky that we didn't get really sick, and my heart goes out to the families that lost a loved one due to this awful virus. 

We ditched dance soon after my last post and the kid was traumatized from swimming lessons, so I had to ditch that too. Parents, please heed my advice, start them Early. 

Her fear of swimming is due to the unknown mostly. Currently we live in a condo, and I haven't been to the (3) pools on the property for years.  Admittedly, while we live in Sunny Florida, beach trips are still kind of far and in between. As a parent I feel horrible and just feel so overwhelmed and that I have no time ever but I am working on that. The last beach trip (summer 2022) I did not force her, and she went to the water and giggled, played and ran right in.... this is progress and whose kid is this? It was full ear shattering screams when we went before so this was a major WOW for me and Dad. I plan to start her again soon, fingers crossed I won't be the parent with the wailing toddler again, who am I kidding I will be. 

Note- I started writing this 4/2022 and here we are 11/7/2022. (Rolls eyes, I know I know) 

So much has happened such as the kid has been asking me almost daily lately can we go back to both dance and swim lessons. YAY....I am so happy. I can either sign up for lessons which has 3-4 kids per instructor, or I am considering private lessons for 2 months and then back to normal classes. 

As for dance, I called the instructor and plan to get her in perhaps in December or January. I have a big surprise coming up in 2 weeks for the kiddo. I will write about it in the next post.

Anybody Out There?

 

Well here I am again, about a year and a half after my last blog post. 

I keep typing and deleting, fingers clicking but nothing is  making sense so I delete. Do I really need to restart blogging? Do I want to? Who would want to read it? Even though I have wrestled with these questions for a while – a long while indeed – they cannot silence that quiet inner voice that tells me to go ahead and dive in. 

And, of course, I cannot ignore the effects of the pandemic over these last almost 2 years to me both personally and professionally, my friends, family, my more immediate surroundings and the world at large, all of which constitute a major reason for taking the time to reflect on the direction of my life.

So much happened, so many milestones for my daughter and so many times I have been tested as a mother, wife, and just a working woman in general.

Motherhood is hard, incredibly hard and it is further compounded by the fear of the world. Go to hell COVID-19.

So many lives lost, it is hard to even have a  conversation with people without sharing horror stories of this terrible disease and how it impacted either you or someone you know.

I partially worked from home from March to October 2020 and it was both glorious and exhausting.  I see pictures of people that used the time to get in shape and it makes me feel a little jealous because weight did not go down for me, it went up. I keep starting and stopping work out programs and I hope to conquer this soon, I want to be around a long time and to be healthy for my kiddo. 

 As for baby number 2, I think I am closing the page, the story if you will at 1.

This wont be a woo is me post so lets move on to some positive highlights for record keeping.

The tiny human is alive, well, and a threenager, yes that's absolutely a thing. 

She has her own little personality, set of friends, potty trained, can remember books ( not quite reading) attends dance, did her first recital, and is now attending daycare............daycare sucks but that's another post.

All in all we are all doing ok all things considered. 

Procrastination is still at an all time high., oh well.

Procrasting through Life

pro-cras-ti-na-tion |prəˌkrastəˈnāSHən, prō-|
                                                                                noun- the action of delaying or postponing something


As the title mentions I feel like I am procrastinating through life.

• A year ago I purchased a cutting machine to start an Etsy shop, that machine has been seldomly used and the business not started, despite my well not so best efforts.
• 10 years ago I wanted to go into the legal field but decided against it due to not wanting any more crushing student loans, I still wish I did it.
• I said I would visit Paris for my 40th B-day, it never happened and at the rate of this Coronavirus outbreak, it probably wont until things are under control.
• I said I would start Keto in October, we are in March and I have done perhaps 1 or 2 Keto meals in one week but not really on the diet or working out.
• I said I would start a new blog, which would also center around my crafting business

There are so many other instances and things I can list but we would be here all day. While the little things may not be such a big deal, I think the bigger ones are, such as a career change. I feel stagnant in my role as well as the pay truly sucks. The only reason why I am hanging on is because it is in close proximity to my home and my daughter's  babysitter.

As I write this, I am truly sad that I allow "life" and my lack of motivation to carve this as a part of who I am.

I have a game plan, I am going to set tiny goals and meet them no matter what. I have to stop this cycle. Here I am at 40 with a few what if's because of it. I need to take control and I will.

While I was on amazon buying an appetite suppressant ( I am desperate, please don't judge) I came across this book and will listen to the audio version for free. At this point buying the book will mean it will collect dust with the others I have. Listening has a better shot.

 

Hopefully my next post is telling you things have turned around, but it is a step, a step to stop me from procrastinating my way though life.

Two & Sassy

Hi Everyone,

My daughter had her 2nd birthday on 1/30, send help & for the love of God please send WINE.

All of a sudden she has a personality, is learning to be independent, and is experiencing mood swings. It changes with the wind, she has a bad day if I cut the banana but if her Dad does it then no worries. I cannot wait for my mom/friend get away in 2 weeks. Wine, Sushi, sleep & catching up with the girls.
I absolutely expect to totally miss her the whole time and will probably want to spend most of the time sleeping.

This post will actually be a bunch of memes because they can best describe how I am feeling.
Perhaps I will come back and give a better well written version but for now, enjoy.

My favorite...... NOT

 

 

Life Update & a 22 Month Old

Hello World,

It's been 2 months since my last update so lets just get right into it.

I still have not opened my Etsy store and have been dragging my feet. To be completely honest life is kicking my butt. It is hard to work full time, be a mother, wife and still try to spend time trying to hone my craft into a business. My hat is off to the mothers before me that have succeeded. My health and eating habits have gone to the toilet and my waistline is the highest it has been for years... **Sigh**

On the bright side, for 2 weeks now I have been working out at least 3-4 days a week. I do them right after work as soon as I get home and get my daughter settled with snacks.

I change, turn on Youtube to Popsugar and do the 15 minutes work out, while eating have gotten much better, it has been a struggle.

After Thanksgiving my aim is to try Keto ( again) and stick to it for 30 days. I know I can do this.

Baby Update
My sweet girl will be 22 months old in 11 days and she is quite the handful.
She is learning, exploring and understanding herself more.

Mommy probably spoiled her a little so I have a tougher time with the tantrums than Dad. I know, I know
As we are nearing the two year mark ever so quickly, but sometimes I feel like I already have a two year old. We are starting to have mini conversations which makes her seem so grown up. .

Favorite Foods:   Chicken & Veggie Sticks no not the real sticks the chip ( don't judge).  Other favorites include beans& rice, anything from someone else other than mom. Yes this is a thing. I can make her soup and she will not have it but if the babysitter makes her lentil soup, I get pictures of her happily having it. It breaks my heart, I mean am I a bad cook? 

New Words/ Phrases:  "Stop" or "Sit Down"  She is quite the talker and we absolutely love her little chatter.

Sleep: I put her in our bed and haven't taken her out. Her pack and play is still next to our bed, it has been a few months...I know I created a monster but I love her next to me. Daddy is getting mad so we will be transitioning her back to her bed probably sooner than later.  The other bad thing is she has to have us with her to fall asleep, this I hope will change.

Potty Training:  We just kind of started, honestly I am not looking forward to this so I am hoping for help from the babysitter.


My girl is really starting to assert herself & what he wants!  She is definitely stubborn.  Stubborn, but sweet.  Oh so sweet!  She loves being around people and especially other kids.  Watching her grow up is just the greatest joy, and I think to myself..................................... I really want another one.


That's another story for another day.

IVF Cards & Encouragement

Quickie Post :-)

 

I think I mentioned that I plan to open an Etsy shop in the near future & am still currently working out the logistics and what not.

Since I am constantly looking at whats out there, naturally I like to see the creative items for sale under the IVF Tag. I came across this cute card and it spoke to me on so many levels.

Anyway here is the card, isn't it spot on?

This is NOT my image or my item

You may find it here https://www.etsy.com/listing/693820301/bad-infertility-advice-infertility-ivf?ref=cart

Shop Name: PinkandBluesIF