Random thoughts & Expired Meds

Breaking bad habits can be so

extremely hard but gaining weight for me seems to be incredibly easy.

 

For the last few months I keep saying & blogging I need to loose weight and yet I have not. 
As a matter of fact I keep doing everything the opposite to help me reach my goal. I still drink wine, I still indulge in crap...and I finally had my fed up moment and basically shouted
ENOUGH is ENOUGH!
Right now this may be terrible to do this since I expect to stim in the next 3 weeks so I will do this gently. Adjust my intake cut down or out carbs and walk 3 days a week starting today.

Expired Meds??


I was ruffling through an old drawer this morning looking if I had some syringes from my prior cycle and to my complete surprise I came across all sorts of Meds.
All sadly have already expired between 2013-2015 :-(  but the irony is I will need for my upcoming cycle in April so I have to re-purchase.
There was a brand new bottle of progesterone, prednisone, 1 vial of menopur as well as unopened boxes of Endometrin & a novarel in the refrigerator that I threw out a year ago. I won't let this happen again, if I have unused Meds I will see to it they get to someone else. Kind of bummed they will be tossed out and they could have been put to use.

I am trucking along though, trying to organize which reminds me I have to call and schedule hubby's semen analysis. Let's hope he can get in within the next week or so.

 

 

 

 

FRIDAY FABULOUS

I am in such good spirits and apparently making everyone "gag" in my office.

Oh well it's my secret....I am on my journey and it will be soon.

As any IVF or TTC vet knows you are constantly worrying and waiting while cycling, so until I am at that point for now I am .....

 

 

I am still getting the meds together...I know I know I really need to get my act together BUT I am a bargain shopper so hence the delays.

 I keep chasing the better deals, it's ok my personal deadline to have all meds is 3/31/2017.

 

Isn't this just adorable?

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Time & Obsessions

How is it already almost the end of March?
Just crazy how this time is certainly trucking along but that's fine because I am so excited for April.
It's spring and I am in great spirits, the busy season is almost behind us ( in my office anyway).
Technically it is always busy but now you can at least breathe from March-July around here.

Let's talk obsessive behavior !
I think I am a bit obsessed with all things IVF or baby lately....who am I kidding always.
  Between reading the blogs, being on Instagram, following forums, etc. I am constantly either thinking about babies, or  fantasizing about myself being pregnant. Seriously I need to focus my efforts on other things but when your biggest desire is to have children it will be your lives focus & consume you.

Look at this cute crib I found on Wayfair. I have always been drawn to the smaller cribs, I suppose because I live in a condo it would be more practical so I just always loved them.

or this on

 

On Another Note
 I think I  am going to try to schedule a phone consultation with the Doctor.

I do have some questions and wanted to make sure the I's are dotted and the T's crossed.

 

As for meds department....Gonal F is on deck since last week YAY!!!, Menopur  and the rest should be in this week.

Ikea has cute cribs too

April Sounds Good

 

It's official, my body thinks this shit is a joke..... LOL .  Ha the joke is on you I was going to wait until Aril anyway because I didn't order all drugs and hubby needs his analysis. 

 

So in it's normal fashion of being a jerk at times mother nature is actually on time this month. Normal for me is it being here within 30-35 days, today my friends is CD 33 *gasp*.

 

 

 

So the Good News

 

*I have been faithfully taking my vitamins, Ubiqunol, Prenatals, Vitamin D, Vitamin C and recently Caltrate not sure I will continue these.

*I have my ducks in a row ( sort of), with meds listed & ready to wrap up ordering which reminds me I have to call Freedom tonight. (see below)

*I had to price and price my little heart out.

FYI -https://www.goodrx.com/

*Is a good site to price compare meds

*I also have Endometrin Coupons

*Plus the 25% discount from Compassionate Care.

 

*Side Note* Why the hell is IVF medication so darn expensive

 

 

Bad News

 

*Uhhhmmm I have been devouring everything including fries

Drinking sugary drinks, wine, including soda...WHYYYYYYYY

Not exercising...Don't. Judge. Me.

All in all I am doing ok, could be better, but doing ok.

 

Freedom Fertility Pharmacy- I don't want to speak negatively about them but I will say that the reviews for them are horrible. I hope this is not the case

 

https://www.yelp.com/biz/freedom-fertility-pharmacy-byfield?adjust_creative=bing&utm_campaign=yelp_feed&utm_medium=feed_v2&utm_source=bing

 

Setbacks & Silver Linings

 

Well Plan C is not going so great so Plan B will have to do which is ordering from overseas and this my friends will likely cause us to cycle in April. I am not too mad about it because I decided on a few things I listed below. I have 25% so I will get 1-2 Pens of Gonal-F at Freedom as well as all the Cetrotide. I will get the other 2  pens and menopur from the overseas pharmacy.

 

I have 3 reasons I am not too mad about us cycling in April unless of course AF is an ass

1.  Hubby hasn't done a semen analysis yet and I had to ask about it. ( Not Liking this)😔
2.  I had to also ask if all testing's are done to which the response is to call at start of my period which brings me to the 3rd.😔
3.  Since I have done IVF before I know I need to do more blood work, I gave vials and vials of blood. I already did the genetic testing but I believe there should be more or maybe I am the one that's wrong but I do know this, the clinic on 2/13 did not do my TSH as requested on my orders no one caught this or questioned it. 😔

While there is no celebration over her for this delay it is what it is.  Initially I wanted to cycle in January and have my baby/babies in 2017 optimistically speaking of course, but this is just further delaying the whole dang process unnecessarily. *Sigh*

 

My big girl panties are on, I take full responsibility for not ordering some of the meds while I waited for the Compassionate Care Program and just starting to forward my orders in to the pharmacies for quotes.

 

I expect this will be over $3K when am done which is still better than the $5,600K initially quoted from Freedom.

I am pressing on.

 

 

Silver Lining Perhaps?

Well there may a small victory to contend with. There is a strong possibility that I will be getting 3 boxes or 15 vials of Menopur for $375...Yep you read that right. The down side for this extreme discount? They expire 8/2017 & NO RETURNS. I am aware of the gamble so I am still pondering plus I can get 10 vials for the same price with longer expiration dates from the UK so I have to think quick.

Also I try to research as much as I can and will try to purchase from a reputable pharmacy in the UK. Just like the US they  do require a prescription & if the clinic refuses to upload one specifically for this company I will have to send them the one for Freedom Fertility.
The great thing is it is from the same Manufacturer & not generics.

Here is a disclaimer from one of the pharmacies, there is no funny business at all.

Items will be sent on receipt of a UK prescription. If you have a non-EU prescription, our General Medical Council-certified doctor can convert your prescription into a UK one, so that you can still get your prescriptions and make savings, too!

Approved and Ungrateful

 

I was approved for the Compassionate Program but for 25% off. While this is still amazing and I am thankful ( please don't hate me for saying this), I am also truthfully very disappointed. Our income is low, I have seen higher income than us get 50% what the heck? I tried to ask them about the criteria and they were not so nice with the response. Compassionate Care not so compassionate with questions? But understandably they are giving me something and here I am questioning it. It's just that I was really, really hoping for 50%.

Anyway, even though we are working, we are on the much lower end of middle class so this is a hit to my wallet and anxiety level. Sacrifices were made just to cycle which will be financed for 12 months. *sigh*. I called my husband whining & he quickly asked " Where is your faith?"... I love this man. The things we do for a chance at a family. I am humbled & thankful and also ungrateful all at the same time. There are credit cards that can be used and probably will be, it just wasn't my plan. I wanted to use them as little as possible....... I have worked so hard to keep debt down but all out the window now.

On the flip side at the time of our dire need we did get it at 75% when we both were unemployed at the same time for a short period of time in 2013, the year we won the raffle and still failed IVF, yeah that year. I am thankful we were approved and have the opportunity to use the program if necessary but now I move on Plan B & C. There are couples that did not even get what I did for goodness sake so I will cut the crap & get on with Plan B, nothing I can do about this anymore.

I am expecting aunt flow in 2 weeks or less unless she is a no show again, so I have to start to secure meds right now.




Plan B is to order from the UK or Israel , & Plan C is up in the air but tricky so I won't mention.
At the end of the day guess what? If I have to cycle in April then so be it.

Almost forgot, I also applied for First Steps and was approved for 25% but I won't be using those medications, that's for Follistim and I was prescribed Gonal F.

Disclaimer-  I am just whining about this. I am well aware that IVF is costly & having a child will be too. This wind in my sail alter the course but not change it. I am of course thankful just was also in the same breath ungrateful. There are many couples not even able to afford a cycle and have to live with that. If you are that person and reading just know that I understand.

 

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