Kudos to Freedom Fertility Pharmacy

While they did not call they shipped my meds yesterday and they are here today.....I had them delivered to a Fedex location on my way home, did a quick check and put them back in the refrigerator. Life is good. I cannot wait to get off the birth control pills....:-) I have mixed emotions....one minute its YAY...am on my way and the next its this sucks, this really sucks......

1/3 Check

I am happy to report that my Menopur are here (happy dance). My prescription says 10 vials and I got 15 so far, actually 16.....still have a vial from my mini ivf not sure if expired though

What I am not happy to report is that Freedom Fertility did not call me today as promised to confirm my order for Gonal-F and Cetrotide and to ship it.........lovely. GOOD thing i don't start stimming until 10/11. Take note order your meds ahead.

And tonight DH made a comment about "when am pregnant"..makes me so nervous. I don't want to let him down but this is out of our hands.....its in Gods and there I leave it...

It's hum drum

I am happily counting the days down until Oct 4th, (next friday) when I go in and get some news..since I haven't started I do not have much to say here or to document. It's pretty Blah, hum drum around here.

MEDS
I did want to update that the person that was supposed to sell me the Menopur that I wrote about last week, did not. (Sigh) Oh well, DH said well just buy it from Freedom and call it a day or try 1 more time. Today I found someone in my state that had a cancelled cycle with just about all the meds I need. It sucks to have a cancelled cycle, but it could be due to great surprises, anyway she is shipping the menopur fingers crossed tommorrow and it will be about $400 for 3 boxes which includes shipping and the COD fee.
The nurse confirmed that she sent my prescription to Freedom Fertility yesterday 9-23 and I can say at this time I have not heard from them yet. I plan to call either later today or tommorrow. I have heard mostly good things about them but there are some not so good stories. Since we are paying out of pocket we will order as we go. Risky...? YES but at the same time it won't leave us completely at too much of a loss since they ship for free overnight. I hope I am not playing too much with fire but dropping too much on meds I will not use is NOT appealing either and running out will of course send me in a panic. I pray it will all work out and if necessary and I need to order at the drop of a hat then there are no worries, besides the clinic may have a sample stash they can help out with.

The ones we won't order until Day 1 (Oct 11) will be Endometrin and Progesterone in Oil. Why? For 1. I  need to know why are we ordering both since they do the same thing. In oil is $35 per vial roughly several days shots and the Endometrin is quoted at $400 plus for 63 pills ( vaginal insertion). I will happily get the one in my butt and deal with the lumps and not leaky mess ( sorry TMI). Here's another kicker if the prescription for Endometrin is called in from a Specialty Pharmacy it is $400 plus BUT when I quoted it online for Walgreens / CVS my insurance will cover and my co-pay would be $40....Don't you just love the insurance companies. (rolling my eyes)
I won't know what this is all about until I see the RE next week. In the meantime will order majority of the meds when I get the call from Freedom, sit tight, and wait to get this whole ordeal going.

BCP-I still hate them, my boobs have grown and I am moody and cannot sleep.

BCP

I HATE BCP's ( Birth Control Pills)...I absolutely hate the way they make me feel. Just absolutely disgusting and YAY me for being on them for another 3 weeks. ( rolling eyes)
On a brighter note-I  had a fabulous weekend, complete with hanging out and enjoying seafood. I admit I am tired of the isolation this whole experience causes....you are either thinking of becoming pregnant, cycling, waiting to cycle, or getting over a cycle. Infertility sucks.
The silver lining is that I was able to score 3 boxes of Menopur for the price of 1 from a previous cycler. I still plan to buy 1 box from Freedom though. My prescription is for 10 vials and I "plan" to get 20 vials to prepare, the worse case scenario is that I will not need as much but let's be realistic...even when I did mini-ivf the birth control pills I took for 2 weeks quieted it down my system too MUCH so I had to up the menopur dosage, it didn't help much but I am going to this a little better prepared.
On my script between this and th Gonal-F these are the bigger ticket items. My rationale is that I can always get the trigger the week I start stims...as well as the progesterone. It would be ideal to have ALL meds prior to cycling but realistically when paying Out of Pocket, this is extremely difficult but God's willing it will happen.
I am still at a standstill with the 7 pound weight loss but the good thing I feel healhier and enjoy power walking / jogging. 

The Ball is Rolling....well somewhat !

So the ball is sort of rolling which is a GREAT thing and so now I am documenting in the event I loose this loose piece of paper noted from the Nurse.

CD 1 9/6
CD 2 9/7-Started BCP ( Birth Control Pills)
CD 5-Nurse calls to advise me the game plan for the upcoming cycle and that she already called in my prescription......wait WHAT? I am paying out of pocket and need to be savy and price shop, my insurance covers NOTHING but thank goodness we do have the 75% from the compassionate program for Gonal F, Certrocide ( am sure this is spelt wrong oh well) & Ovidrel.

Anyway continue taking BCP until  10/4th which I am NOT happy about but at the same time whatever it is what it is.

Oct 4th- at 2:30 pm Baseline, Med Instructions, etc expect to be there for a few hours per nurse so not able to return to work
Oct 7th-Stop BCP
Oct 11th-Start Stims.

So that is the plan in a nutshell.  I am not a fan of the BCP's so far and remember being on them for a short time with the Mini Ivf in 2011, I was told that they shut down my system too well, we shall see... Ball is rolling and I am happy....

What the what?

So let me start by recapping my day yesterday

Thursday 9/5/13
I have been SUPER Cranky. I called the RE's office, annoyed as there is still no AF, then I was advised to do bloodwork the next day, and then ultrasound on 9/9. It is a step in the right direction but I was very irritated. I told my husband I didn't like what the nurse was implying, I mean they did say they would give me provera to get  my cycle going and I had to suggest perhaps the doctor should do an Ultrasound since I am concerned. I don't know, just didn't like the overall feeling of the phone conversation. My cycles have been missing since the Lap, DH told me not to worry and it will all work out. I said a prayer, remained grumpy but decided to leave it in God's hands and told DH, nothing before it's time I guess.

Which brings me to today
Quest Diagnostic @ 7am and did the bloodwork, on way to work felt slight cramps, thought hey those feel like AF could this be real....turned up the radio sang to work and forgot about it. Got to desk, started day then major cramps, what? go to restroom and there she is,  Aunt Flow.
It has been light all day but the cramps are the worse I can remember....I suppose my body took its own time to heal and now here she is. I jumped for joy in the rest room, and high fived the air. I was so ecstatic I called the clinic and told the nurse and she said, "you know funny thing the head nurse said yesterday I bet her cycle starts on friday....anyway she said start your birth control pills tommorrow cycle day 2, I have an IVF meeting with the doctor on tuesday and then I will get back to you with the rest of the protocol and meds....She also said I may be on bcp for only a week".....
WHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAATTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT
I mean I guess I am in shock that this could possibly go so fast, then I question is my body completely healed? Why wasn't a game plan already in place? I have mixed feelings but I have ZERO control over the cycle, you see this is the price you pay for winning a free cycle, you feel like you just have to go along. I am sure him doing all he can to get me pregnant will only do good for his sart numbers, but at the same time besides that he gains NOTHING from my cycle, well no compensation, so I wonder if he will truly do his all to get us to our goal. I am remaining positive though, because at the end of the day I can "choose" to think positive and do what I can for my self...

On the weight front, it took me 4 weeks to loose 7 pounds,  I am borderline pissed off I run every day utilizing the couch to 5k. It is awesome if you are a beginner as I am, I love the way I fee after. While the scale is hardly moving, I feel lighter and my clothes are looser so that is my motivation....Since it seems I am in full swing I should be blogging more....lets see what tommorrow brings...lets see what this whole cycle brings.