One More Day until Judegment Day-Fertilization Report

Truth be told I am half way calm and half way loosing it....I find out tommorrow if my Embies made it to Blast...I am trying to keep myself busy and so far shopping has been the antidote to my poisonous feelings inside...I am terrified of the results so my plans are to make sure I am HOME, hopefully alone with DH.

Started my First IVF....

After several years of trying to get Preggers, and not being able to afford IVF on my own I came across a Clincial trial study that pays for it for the first time....here's my story..

I wont bore you with the let-downs that early August brought on with not being able to prove I ovulated which almost had me kicked out the study, or me taking BCP's as they suggested only to find that it put my ovaries to sleep too long of course me following the protocol to a T and only having 2 EGGS. I wont bore you with the fact that after doing bloodwork for almost 2 weeks straight my veins gave up and I felt like a Human Pin Cushion, oh no.No I wont bore you with that. I wont bore you with the fact that a friend of mine is knocked up and all my friends have their baby BUT me....I can hear the bilogical clok ticking....  Thank Goodness the needles are finally all behind me, well not really just for now.......I sit here patiently ready to hear the outcome....I wont know until 10/1/2011. I might need support, I might need a drink...I might  need.....not sure right now but I might need anything at that point...Anything to possibly numb me...Sweet Ignorant Bliss is priceless....


ER-9/24/2011
9/25/2011 Report-1 fertilized and the other kind of not sure
If all works out then sFET is October/November 2011 just freakin great..